I've always had this want.
Deep within my soul I know that if I could ever bring this want, this desire, this need to fruition then I have done something amazing in this world.
I would know that I was a part of something bigger than myself.
I would maybe, just maybe feel proud of something I did and the rewards would be endless.
But not pride in an arrogant sort of manner but pride in its most humblest form.
I would be proud that I was able to embrace a life. Proud that I could open my heart and love in a manner close to God.
And the love.
This love in my heart.
It is love that is beyond measure.
A love so powerful that it fuels this want, this desire, this need within my soul.
And if I could share this love.
Give this love unconditionally, I would then know the pride.
A pride so strong.
A pride that only comes from the love you have for your child.
I have this love.
I have this desire, this want, this need to be a mother.
To look upon the face of my child and love unconditionally.
To look upon the face of my child and beam with pride.
I have taken many steps and missteps on my path to motherhood.
But this step...
This last step that I have taken brings me one day closer to my dream...
It is a giant step forward that I have now taken...
Because I know my child is finally on their way home to me.
It may take time but each day brings me closer to the day I meet my child.
And taking this step.
Moving forward towards that day...
That makes me proud.